♥Jhel♥

~kefoy.. ako ang ala kasabot or ikaw?

2010-06-16T17:50:00.000-07:00

what the hell you're doin' to me..?!

all my life i've been waiting for someone who will rescue me in the middle of cruelness. And now i already found that someone who can give light to my whole life. Years have passed and still we remain. But somethings meant to change. I want to stay like what we we're before. So innocent. So weird. So young. almost everything. But now time has come to vanish. He could easily chased by anger and burst into pieces. He could easily get jealous to every mistakes that i do. He could make me the worst mistakes he ever made. And in my side. I felt like an ice. I can't do what i want to do. Every pain come along my way. I don't know why. Almost everyday my heart starts to burst and my anger starts to show like a fire. I couldn't even imagine expressing some hurtful words or phrase just because of my anger. But he can't blame me for being me like that. I can't be like a lion if he did something right.

~ambot! [to be continued..]

~The Recipe for Full-Blown Trouble.. (hinarborhihihi)

2010-05-30T23:39:00.000-07:00

It all stands with misunderstanding; a misunderstanding between two people. If this misunderstanding has been talked over and the two parties amicably settling it, then the path does not fork into two again. However, if the misunderstanding is not settled, the road takes a different turn. Usually the road ends at a a ravine where both parties fall and injure each other.. figuratively, of course.

Then the misunderstanding becomes something else. Other parties start to cash in. Prejudices become apparent. Bottled sentiments towards the other party start to surface. The original parties are now swamped with opinions, and advices that tend to say, "To hell with it." One or both the original parties are now seduced into thinking that they did nothing wrong or if they did, they tried to take efforts to amend the situation which the other party ignored.

Both parties now openly air their sentiments masked in words that are intended for the meaning to become ambiguous and addressed to the general populace. The other people involved, the third parties, also start to react openly to the sentiments but never directly. As before, prejudices and side-taking now become more apparent. The heat that has stood between both parties now become a full-blown fire through additional firewood and other fuel added by people who have not been involved in the situation in the first place.

Amidst all these, one thing is apparent: the people who have been offering advices, giving stained opinions have not helped at all in the resolution of the problem. Instead, they made it worse, much worse than any of the parties can ever hope to fix. When the day is said and done, these parties would just sit back and say, "I tried to tell them, but they didn't listen." What's left are two people in ruin, and people scarred by the experience.

Look around you. You'll know what I'm saying is true.

~After a while you learn... by Veronica A. Shoffstall, (C) 1971

2010-05-24T22:06:00.000-07:00

After some time you learn the difference,

The subtle difference between holding a hand and chaining a soul.

And you learn that love doesn't mean leaning,

And company doesn't always mean security.

And you begin to learn that kisses aren't contracts,

And presents aren't promises.

And you begin to accept your defeats,

With your head up and your eyes ahead,

With the grace of a woman, not the grief of a child.

And you learn to build all your roads on today,

Because tomorrow's ground is too uncertain for plans,

And futures have a way of falling down in mid-flight.

After a while you learn,

That even the sun burns if you get too much,

And learn that it doesn't matter how much you do care about,

Some people simply don't care at all.

And you accept that it doesn't matter how good a person is,

She will hurt you once in a while,

And you need to forgive her for that.

You learn that talking can relieve emotional pain.

You discover that it takes several years to build a relationship based on confi
dence,

And just a few seconds to destroy it.

And that you can do something just in an instant,

And which you will regret for the rest of your life.

You learn that the true friendships,

Continue to grow even from miles away.

And that what matters isn't what you have in your life,

But who you have in your life.

And that good friends are the family,

Which allows us to choose.

You learn that we don't have to switch our friends,

If we understand that friends can also change.

You realize that you are your best friend,

And that you can do do anything, or nothing,

And have good moments together.

You discover that the people who you most care about in your life,

Are taken from you so quickly,

So we must always leave the people who we care about with lovely words,

It may be the last time we see them.

You learn that the circunstances and the enviroment have influence upon us,

But we are responsible for ourselves.

You start to learn that you should not compare yourself with others,

But with the best you can be.

You discover that it takes a long time to become the person you wish to be,

And that the time is short.

You learn that it doesn't matter where you have reached,

But where you are going to.

But if you don't know where you are going to,

Anywhere will do.

You learn that either you control your acts,

Or they shall control you.

And that to be flexible doesn't mean to be weak or not to have personality,

Because it doesn't matter how delicate and fragile the situation is,

There are always two sides.

You learn that heroes are those who did what was necessary to be done,

Facing the consequences.

You learn that patience demands a lot of practice.

You discover that sometimes,

The person who you most expect to be kicked by when you fall,

Is one of the few who will help you to stand up.

You learn that maturity has more to do with the kinds of experiences you had

And what you have learned from them,

Than how many birthdays you have celebrated.

You learn that there are more from you parents inside you than you thought.

You learn that we shall never tell a child that dreams are silly,

Very few things are so humiliating,

And it would be a tragedy if she belived in it.

You learn that when you are angry,

You have the right to be angry,

But this doesn't give you the right to be cruel.

You discover that only because someone doesn't love you the way you would like
her to,

It doesn't mean that this person doesn't love you the most she can,

Beacuse there are people who love us,

But just don't know how to show or live that.

You learn that sometimes it isn't enough being forgiven by someone,

Sometimes you have to learn how to forgive yourself.

You learn that with the same harshness you judge,

Some day you will be condemned.

You learn that it doesn't matter in how many pieces your heart has been broken,

The world doesn't stop for you to fix it.

You learn that time isn't something you can turn back,

Therefore you must plant your own garden and decorate your own soul,

Instead of waiting for someone to bring you flowers.

And you learn that you really can endure.

You really are strong .

And you can go so farther than you thougt you could go.

And that life really has a value.

And you have value within the life.

And that our gifts are betrayers,

And make us lose

The good we could conquer,

If it wasn't for the fear of trying.

lolz

2010-01-09T03:26:00.000-08:00

sampol sa year 2010

my so long adversities in life..

2008-09-01T01:34:00.000-07:00

to be free is all i wanna be..

It's not that easy living in this crazy mixed up world just like what you think. We need to struggle life in order for us to survive. we need to face every tribulations that come along in our lives. I'm just an ordinary person in this dark place, just trying to make things right. Sometimes, I think of giving up everything i have for the sake of giving up sacrifices at the same time `cause i always think of one thing. I'm so tired of sacrificing everything, so tired of thinking all over again, so tired of thinking what might be good for me and not just thinking of myself but also for the people i love most, but how bout myself? When can I get what i wanted in life? When can i get all the things that I'm craving in my entire life? all i wanted is just to be free, to live life to the fullest and to get what I wanted to be in life. I always think and asked myself why I am here? what's the purpose of being a human here in this world? I can't get what they're saying all about as if I'm living in this unhappy life. So complicated that can be possibly turn out into death. Yes, even death. If that particular thing is legal then I would be one among those people who are no brains and what they're always shouting the so called LOSERS! I don`t care what they're thinking right now upon reading this hidden adversities in my whole life, at least I'm real and writing everything, my burdens in life and what i felt these past few days. Honestly I'm blessed that God gave me this life but at the same time I'm not happy for having here with this empty life full of hatred, sorrow, pains, anger and full of misery. I have my family but i knew they don't support me that much. I have all my friends but not all of them that i can trust. Few among my friends that i can understands me. Can understand what i felt, what i wanted to be and what i wanted in life. And lastly, I do have this someone who's so very kind to me. He's the only one who knew about this but it seems that he don't like me at all. He seems to be different. I think he don't really understands me at all. He seemed to be somebody that I don't knew. What worst most is that I've finally accepted him as my other half but it seemed that he don't want to be part of it. I wanted to be with him even if it's just a second but I can't easily bear every pain I've felt because of these frustrations that I'm always hiding. Being an ordinary person in this cruel world with miserable life is not as easy at all. It leads you to something which can give you freedom, happiness and yes even torturing one's self for the happiness of others. Why can't God make things all beautiful? Why can't He make all things happy? Well, i don't asking anything or even more to Him but all i wanted to know is that why He built everything here on earth not equally? I wanted to be free. I wanted to be somebody in this crazy mixed up world. I wanted to be somebody that can leave a footprints in every humans heart that I've known. Somebody that can do what he wanted in life and can make all things possible. There, i could be happy and live peacefully in my next life.

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~ambot! =(

my lOng lOst lOve.. [hOpe that i wOuld ever find him again..]

2008-05-24T18:14:00.000-07:00

|'m nOt the easiest persOn tO lOve

uncerta|n`s sOngs (pUppy daw)

| thanked yOu my One & Only star..

wew` i miss thOse Old times/days that we're tOgether.. living life cOuld be real and fun! haizz hOw i really wish that we cOuld be ...

i'm waitin fOr yOu and still waitin til nOw.. hOping that God wOuld give us anOther chance tO be tOgether fOr eternity..

i'm still hOpin` and prayin` that sOmeday there wOuld be sOmebOdy whO cOuld replace his place here inside me.. hOping that sOmebOdy wOuld be "YOU".. if that day will cOme, then that wOuld be my happiest day ever! And i cOuldn't trade yOu fOr anything..

and this i prOmise yOu.. even if we're miles apart.. i still love yOu and will always be.. nO One cOuld ever stOp me frOm dOin` this..

always bear in mind that i'm always be here nO matter what, still be waitin` even if it takes fOrever..

| lOve yOu sO much ***** and will always be..

miss yOu sO much..

ingatz alwz & Godbless..

be safe! ='(

---===Jhel==---

it's nice reminiscing `d past (way back 2004)

I'm a new soul. I came to this strange world. Hoping I could learn a bit bout how to give and take. But since I came here, Felt the joy and the fear Finding myself making every possible mistake.. `cause we can't be sure if we're hearing our own voices.. As we close the door even though we are so desperate to stay.. now tell me how I'm supposed to breathe with no air.?! im missing u so badly..

~i'm losing you, i know it.. the clouds are falling on my head.. i'm holding on to memories and gonna stitch myself to your threads..

~one word is all i need to say exactly how i feel.. one word a single word that's from the heart to keeps me real..

---see my imeem account fOr mOre infO all sOngs are uplOaded there--- http://www.imeem.com/people/qBxpis

I’m not the easiest person to love
I’m often the one who lets things go unresolved

Yet you choose to be
on the side of me
on the side of me
Yet you choose to be
on the side of me
on the side of me

I’m not too proud of some things
I’ve done in my life
The skeletons in my closet
Are too big for me to hide

Yet you choose to be
on the side of me
on the side of me
Blessed Charity
You’re on the side of me
on the side of me

♥‘Cause everyone needs a friend to hold
when its cold outside
and there’s no place to go
Everyone needs a friend to hold
all alone I cried
there was no place to go
I remember when nobody cared
but you

Im not the easiest person to love
But you, you’ve opened your heart to show me what I’m worth

‘Cause you choose to be
on the side of me
on the side of me
What a mystery
Youre on the side of me
on the side of me

(repeat ♥)

I remmber wen nobody cared
I remmber wen nobody cared
Nobody cared But you

Yeah you choose to be
on the side of me
on the side of me

`cause my world revolves around you.. it's so hard for me to breathe with no air just like without you!

~pOint Of view

2008-04-18T02:11:00.000-07:00

♥...who are you to judge the life i live? I know i'm not perfect - and i don't live to be... but before you start pointing fingers, make sure that your hands are clean...♥

-Life isn't easy if there's sO much tr|bulat|Ons alOng the jOurney..

| can't understand why peOple tend tO unnerve sOme Other innOcent pips.?! are they just the type Of persOns whO's sO very insecure bOut themselves.?! | myself Often experience bOut these tribulatiOns but | just purely ignOre it 'cause | dOn't want tO burst Out intO anger..

relevance.?! during april 04, 2008 i've made a bulletin pOst in my friendster accOunt but i just wOnder why many peOple are sO caught up in reading my bulletin alOne.?! they made lOt Of cOmpliments & sO On & sO fOrt.. but i Only think pOsitive tO that particular pOst 'cause | didn't pOint tO a particular persOn.. it's just a general thOughts fOr everybOdy.. then again, | asked myself why they can easily react in everything that | dO.?!

sO | just again |gnOre it! and | asked my friend bOut what's happening tO them 'cause it seems that sOmething's bOthering me.. sOme peOple already asked me what's yOur issue bet her.?! huh.? i dunnO.. sO when i figured things Out it's just all abOut my pOst in my bulletin sO i've explained.. that i'm nOt pOinting tO her Or tO them.. it's just an everyday pOst tO everybOdy.. "sa maigO lng gud!"

sO i thOught everything is clear tO them but then when i Opened my yahoomail i fOund Out that sOmebOdy cOpied my messages frOm my friend's friendster accOunt.. sO i've wOnder whO's that persOn & whO's the Owner Of that particular email address.. [nag regOr akO utOk atO ai.. kai nahibOng kO kung wer did she gOt my email address.?]

then suddenly, my life experience anOther battle against them.. it seems that me against the whOle wOrld.!

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her message gOes this way..

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Date: Wed, 9 Apr 2008 09:03:00 -0700 (PDT)
From: "girl Odnil" " Add to Address Book Add Mobile Alert
Subject: Re: bata naa q QuEsTioN????????? hahahhahaa....
To: Jerielyn Calambro"

bata, naa ko questions nimu but hope nah d ka mo sulti ani sa mga kurimaw ug ni kinsa dha.. if ever mn gani makahibaw ko nah ni sulti ka dha sa mga kurimaw den expect nah lng nah d nah ko mo salig nimu.. deal.?!

ask lng ko if unsa nah pud ang mga gipang hisgotan dha sa mga chismosa.. gusto lng ko makahibaw kai if d gani nah cla mo undang sa ilang batasan mapugos nah jud ko ug delete tanang EGIC nah naa sa ko fwenz list.. d ko nahan talikdan ko ug libak! but naanad nah mn noon pud ko nila.. just wanna ask bah.. kai ni ask biya ka nko den i told you nah wala dha sa EGIC ang akong gi igo ato.. den ni call pud c karya nko ask pud xa bout ato.. ako pud giingnan nah dili ikaw woe.. wala pud sa EGIC.. mao ra to.. but nanu mn noon nah ingon ana mn?! so BIG DEAL JUD DIAY NILA ANG AKONG MGA GI PANG POST SA BULLETIN?! ha.?! ka gamay jud ug mga utok nila oi..

isa ra akong gi ask nimu and hope nah imu ni matubag.. salamat!

dont worry d mn pud ni mo katag ug walai makahibaw nah ni ask ko nimu uf nisulti ka nko.. nahan (naa pa ni sumpay.. naputol ug paste sa amaw!)

mysteriOus persOn: Oi...kluoy pud nimu....oi!!!!! yaw jud pagsalig kay kaw ra makklulluoy..huhuhuhuhu..kaw ra igO sa u gepanulti..la epek2 cge bye!!!!

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(sO she tried tO tease me that's why i replied tO her in a teasing way.. and here it gOes..)

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Date: Wed, 9 Apr 2008 09:03:00 -0700 (PDT)
From: "Jerielyn Calambro" Add to Address Book Add Mobile Alert
Subject: Re: bata naa q QuEsTioN????????? hahahhahaa....
To: "girl Odnil"

Owz.?! really.?! hurhuhrhurhur.. ka lOoy nah kO sah.?!

lolx! bwahahhahaa:)) kataw-anan biya nimu!

ug nanu gud tawn.?! hahahhaa.. magkatawa lng ta ninyO tanan!

bleh=p

keberrr nah lng urOy!

hahaha:)) laughters!

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after that message i thOught she will nOt answer me again.. but she did! and i tried tO figured things Out.. i want tO knOw the Owner Of that particular email add.. nanu nakahibaw mn xa sa message nah ko sa ko friend nah private message mn tO just for my her.. sO akO xa gi add sa kO ym accOunt but then i can't view her full prOfile sO i deleted her.. and it suddenly cOmes up in my mind nah "impOssible au ni kung kani nah email address alai cOrrespOnding friendster accOunt.." sO i searched fOr it! and it was a shOcking mOments that it was her.. whO made my life sO misserable & unnerve me intO death! hahha:)) saunz! i just laught Out Loud.. nagkatawa lng kO sa ya gipangbuhat.. ang asking myself kung nanu ya tOng nabuhat.. maong i replied tO her & again tease her..

her reply: (| thOught peace is what she want.. cause her subject is "peace!!!" but then nag wonder lng ko nah ang naa sa ya bOdy kai kagubOt.. lolx! abi nah kOg peace nah jud but instead ya nOon kO gi away! saunz)

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ang iya reply nah kO

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Date: Wed, 10 Apr 2008 09:03:00 -0700 (PDT)
From: "girl Odnil" Add to Address Book Add Mobile Alert
Subject: Peace!!!!
To: "Jerielyn Calambro"

girl Odnil wrote:

Maovah.....!!!!!!!
Baga man ka nawong gud...
hahahahaha....
bati pud ug kaulaw panagsa....oi.

yaw na paabot nga c sir nay mhukom nimu....
ug yaw pud paavot nga sapu2n q nimu kay bsin nag2o ka nga atrasan tika
wait lng sa tym hah??????

baba ra'y puhunan nimu..... :l)
nya mdawat kha k anang imong pg-acting dhaa!!!!!!
paglipay krun kay imu pman adlaw...
cge bye!!!!

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--->>sO i made my last message just fOr her.. and i pOsitively think nah maO nah jud ni ang last message nah kO nah para iyaha kai kapOi nah wOe.. and if ever mO reply pa xa nah kO after ani nah message kai akO nah xa e blOck sa kO email add.. i dOn't need a traitOr friend in my life!

my last messsage tO her..

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Date: Wed, 10 Apr 2008 09:03:00 -0700 (PDT)
From: "Jerielyn Calambro" " Add to Address Book Add Mobile Alert
Subject: Re: Peace!!!!
To: girl Odnil"

maO bah.?! ahahaha:)) kataw-ana pud nimu wOe.. ug unsa mn pud ang akOng Offense aber.?! nagtarOng kO sa akO wOrk ug kamO ang nagcge samOk².. i'm nOt wOrking just fOr myself.. naa kO'y gibuhi maOng ala nah sa kO linya ang manghilabOt.. unless naa kO'y makita ninyO nah dautan nah nabuhat dri nah kO..

mga hilabtanOn man gud kaau mOng daku.. i dOn't remember nah nagka lalis ta Or nagka bikil.. wen mn diay ta nagka lalis ug bOut sa unsa mn.?! bOut sa cards ni melOna.?! hah.?! maO bah.?! saunz! ka pan-Os nah intawn ana wOe.. bfOre ka nisulti ana ni sir kahibaw nah cla tanan ana.. and i already asked fOrgiveness tO melOna.. awahi nah au ka sa balita dai! abi nah kO updated ka permi.?! saunz!

maO bah.?! u mean mO pahaba ka ni sir para c sir nah ang mO hatag ug hukOm para nah ko.?! so wat dO yOu call that.?! dba SIPSIP.?! saunz pud ninyO.. mga bata jud! gamai rang butanga ipaabOt pa sa kOrte! saunz! d mn kaha mO gustO ug gubOt.?! unya nanu manghilabOt mn jud mO ug mga taw nah ala manghilabOt ninyO.?! nagpakahilOm ra kO.. if naa mn gani kO makita ninyO mO share ra kO sa kO mga trusted friends kai i knOw d cla same ninyO nah mga sOmbOngera! and amO ra pud dayOn e end ang cOnversatiOn.. maO ra!

dagkO nah mn unta mO tanan wOe.. d diay mO makabuhat nah kamO ra ang mO sOlve sa inyO Own prOblem sa isa ka taw.?! kailangan pa diay mOng magsalig sa laing taw para lng masitOl mO dha ug magdaku.?! hah.?! saunz! mga bata jud! d diay preha nah mO dri nah maglalis mi den ma end up lng ug katawa after sa amOng gamaing estOrya.?! dapat pa diay mO tawag mO ug jury.?! hahhaa:)) saunz!

akO baga'g nawng.?! bacn ikaw.. ala diay ka kahibaw sa mga things nakapalibOt nimu.?! pag sure wOe.. be aware ra gud pud sa imu palibOt..

kai tingali'g nagtOo ka nah ala kO khibaw sa tanang bahO nimu sa inyO bOarding haws.. suwayi jud kO.. tingali'g kaw ra unya ang mauwawan.. yaw intawn pag ingOn ana dai wOe..

unya akO pa imu ingnOn nah magbatOn kO ug kauwaw.?! kai nanu diay giunsa diay tekaw.?! ha.?! nghilabOt bah kO nimu katOng times nah matug ka.?! katOng times nah mag crunchyrOll ka ug mag yOutube kai lagi mag tan-aw ug mOvies.. ng hilabOt bah kO ninyO katOng times nah magtambay mO sa luyO ug mag tapad² sa mga custOmer dha while On duty.. dba wala.?! unya saman imu prOblema ana.?!

nanu init mn kaau ka ug dugO nah kO.. yaw lng gud kasuya kung unsai naa nah kO.. d mn pud kO datu para imu kasuyaan.. preha ra ta mga taw nah equal gipaktaw dri.. ug purOs mga imperfect!

kung naa ka kalagOt sa ubang taw nah gi under ka bfOre yaw pangamOng ug yaw bawsi ang mga innOcenteng taw sa imu kalagOt nila.. magabaan biya ka dai! tingali'g sObra pa nah karma/gaba imu madawat ana.. karma is true indeed!

ug abOut pud sa akO kalagOt sa usa ka taw, ala ra tO.. mana tO.. i already tOld everything tO him.. dba giingnan ta mO nah d kO mO dumOt ug taw but d pud kO mahuman unless d kO maka baws ug estOrya ninyO.. mana mi naglalis ug gamai ra au tOng butanga para akO pang dak-On.. saunz pud!

and lastly bOut pud sa kO mga gi pang pOst² sa bulletins.?! kai nanu diay.?! nagtOo nah lng jud mO nah every pOst nah kO kai para inyO dha taga EGIC.!? hah.?! saunz! wat a small brain! ka assuming pud ninyO wOe.. d kamO akO gi igO atO wOe.. i dOn't have tO explain everything para lng makamata mO sa inyO mga sayOp.. dagkO nah mO para sultian pa nah kO.. ug unsa pud labOt nah kO intawn ninyO wOe.. saunz!

anywz, tO end this cOnversatiOn.. tnx nah lng diay nah Once in my life u peOple unnerve me Once fOr awhile! well dOne.. tnx hap.. but maO ra jud ni akO last message ninyO.. ninyO tanan!

dOn't dare nah inyO pakO hilabtan! kai d kO nahan ug gubOt just because Of unimpOrtant things fOr those stupid peOple.. sO hOpe naka sabOt pud ka sa kO message tanan!..

ug palihug lng pud diay ko.. after every issue Or chismis ninyO dha bah butangi lng palihug ug periOd hap.. maO mn gud nai nakabati ninyO.. d maghuman ang gubOt kung dili ninyO butangan ug periOd.. sabOt.?!

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AND THAT'S OUR LAST CONVERSATIONS.. UNTIL...

i just heard that her last message.. i dunnO if that's just fOr me Or fOr everybOdy..

"IF EVER DILI MO HAWA C JHEL DRI SA CAFE, AKO NAH LNG ANG MO HAWA DRI.."

ingOn xa befOre nah "MOPAHAWA DAW XA SA CAFE BUT YA SA UNA PAPAHAWAON C JHEL.. UG KANA C BADITS MAWALA PUD NAH DRI.."

unya karn xa nah nOon ang mOhawa.?! saunz! binata nah mn intawn ni wOe.. wew` hilas ra pud au xa para mag ingOn ana xa wOe.. mura mn pud xa ug naka tamak ug langit wOe para mag ingOn ana xa nah mO dri.. ala biya xa hilabti.. saunz!

sO nakatawa nah pud kO niya.. i again asked myself what the hell she's dOin.?! ala kO manghilabOt niya.. cla ra ang Over reactive kaau sa tanan nah kOng mga pangbuhatOn.. even sa kO mga persOnal messages / sa akOng persOnal life ila pa hilabtan.!? saunz! sO i again.. ignOre her fOr the last time just tO make an end..

and hOpefully d nah kO nya / O ni kinsa dha nah hilabtan kO.. ana lng!

and anOther thing...
-last april 18, 2008 (friday), ni walked-Out daw xa ug ni hilak.. ang ya reason nah ni hilak xa kai tungOd daw ni jhel.. nanu nah tungOd nah mn pud nah kO nah i dOn't dO anything tO her.. akO nah ng gi butangan ug pOint pag april 10.. den karn magcge japOn xa ug balik².?! mura xa ug sirang plaka! | dOn't give a damn tO thOse useless things.. ala kO maglagOt niya but instead naglagOt kO sa ya mga gipangbuhat.. i dOn't knOw why she made such stupid things like this.?! and On that particular day, the guard(edar) called up sa edds.. ngita ni meLOna kai mangumusta lng nila tanan but unfOrtunately wala c meLOna ug c badits ang nakatubag sa fOne.. den ni ana cya nah daghan daw mO resign sa eddys isa nah c mymie kai naigO daw ang ya heart.. d daw niya makaya nah d cla magtagad sa guy.. but pag mOrning ana kai ni ana lng kalit c meLOna ni badits nah nihilak nah pud c mymie kai tungOd nah pud daw ni jhel.. sO pag abOt nah kO anang gabie-Ona nah mO duty nah kO gikasab-an kO ni badits.. kung unsa nah pud dawng kabOang akOng gibuhat.?! ug unsa nah pud daw akOng gipang pOst.. nahibOng kO kung nanu.. ug naunsa xa.. sO she tOld me everything.. sO i tOld badits nah "ala nah mn kO mag pOst bOut ani.. and ala nah pud kO mO reply sa ya email.. dba i tOld yOu nah that wOuld be my last email para niya then after ana kai d nah kO.. but if ever mO reply pa gani xa then that wOuld be the time nah akO nah xa e bLOck para d nah magsamOk² nah kO.. again, | dOn't give a damn tO this childish act like this.. i'm professiOnal and she must be acting/treating me prOfessiOnally..! akO nah tOng gi periOdan sO dapat ma stOp nah ni.. kai d kO nahan ug gubOt!!.. "

sO akO gipakita c badits sa tanan nah kOng mga pOst pag friday ug pag saturday but hOnestly wala nah jud kO manghilabOt..

---if ever mn gani naa xa persOnal prOblem d unta niya dad-On sa trabahOan.. then mO walk-Out² dayOn xa unya ari niya e pahid nah kO ang ya mga sayOp.. that shOuldn't be!
ka klarO nah atOng ya gibyaan niya ang ya mga respOnsibilities as a cashier then akO pa ang ya himOon ug reasOn.. fOr what.!? para ma dOot kO sa tanan.?! saunz! ala nah kO manghilabOt nya then xa ra pud ang nangita ug gubOt.. ug xa ra pud ang nagpadaku sa situatiOn.. kadugai nah intawn atO wOe then karn paka mO react nah dugai ra kO naghilOm dri.. fOr all yOu knOw, HAGBAY RA INTAWN NAH NAKO GITAPOS WOE.. NAA NAH NAH PERIOD SA KO EMAIL OW!

cOncLusiOn
therefOre i cOnclude, she just want us tO make a fight! hehehe..

ang purpOse sa ya pag panghilabOt sa Other fs accOunt sa isa niya ka cO-wOrker dha kai para ya mabasa ang akOng email ug iya gituyO nah iya e cOpy & paste para lng ya e pOst ug balik.. ug ang pinaka main part sa ya giingOn kai:

"PARA MAG AWAY CLA NI JHEL GING!"

[d ra ang isa nagsulti ana but also pud sa isa ka cO-wOrker nah nakakita sa ya gibuhat..]

but saun ta mn.. d mn mi ingOn ana ka gagmai'g utOk.. we dOn't have minds like a shrimps head! ala mn mi mag away but instead we just talk all Over the situatiOn and we tried tO figured things Out kung unsa jud ang tinOod ug asa ang sayOp.. then after all we've fOund Out that it's with her that we can't trust again!

why she tend tO make all peOple fight.?! ya mn nOon pang sabOngOn ang mga taw sa cafe wOE.. unsa mi manOk.?! saunz pud! d nah ta mga bata intawn para mag ingOn ana pa ta!! we are Old enOugh tO knOw what's gOod & bad and whats right & wrOng.. sO we dOn't need any guardian/Other jury just tO sOlve this matter!!

pEaCe OuT...

to be continued..

my real th0ughts..

2008-03-07T11:20:00.000-08:00

♥...who are you to judge the life i live? I know i'm not perfect - and i don't live to be... but before you start pointing fingers, make sure that your hands are clean...♥

y0u weren't supp0sed t0 mean that mUch t0 me & | wasn't supp0sed t0 fall in |0ve with y0u..

to all people 0ut there.. sa tanang mga batan-0n, tiguwang specifically sa mga chismax.. there's s0mething that i just needed t0 clarify.. it's a very sensitive matter which can give me a reas0n t0 bury y0u t0 death!

why are s0me pe0ple are s0 caught up in kn0wing 0thers' life.?! why they're s0 very interesting b0ut that matter.?! are they the type 0f pers0n wh0 has lots 0f insecurities.?! they want t0 tackle every detail 0f 0ne's individual and then spread it t0 the public just like a rep0rter in a televisi0n. can't they just mind with their 0wn business and d0 what's right f0r them.?! wew` lots 0f pe0ple are like that.. but my last questi0n is that; what's their p0int 0f d0in s0.?! are that s0 imp0rtant f0r them t0 kn0w.?! c0uld that issue can make them as 0ne 0f the milli0naire pe0ple in this w0rld.?! hahaha.. lol.. i guess pe0ple like that are s0 insecure 0f 0ther pe0ple lives.. they can't be just like that fab pers0n they're trying t0 erase in this world!

0n the c0ntrary, hating us w0n't make y0u beautiful!! you can't make us d0wn just like that. why y0u want us t0 be 0ut 0f n0where.?! just because we are b0rn beautiful.?! huh.?! o c'm0n.. y0u can't blame us if we are b0rn like this and m0re than y0urself.. it's God's gift f0r us because we are s0 satisfied 0f 0ur l0oks and the things we 0wned. not like you don't know how to accept the fact that y0u are like that.. d0n't kn0w h0w t0 thank all the gifts y0u have receive everyday! are y0u n0t ashamed 0f what y0u're d0in right n0w.?! "bagaa pud nimu ug nawng w0e.." i'm n0t p0inting 0nly in 0ne pers0n but i'm p0inting f0r th0se pers0n just like y0u are.. why can't y0u just mind your 0wn business and have peace 0f mind.?! and why y0u're always making tr0uble with us.?! saman labot nimu kung ingon ani mi gipa kataw.. have a world in your own woe.. yaw mi labara sa imu pagka insecure.. eeeww.. SHAME 0N Y0U! d ka dapa t mag ingon ana w0e.. plastic! hahahaa.. and we really hate plastics! lol..

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i just needed 2 know that f things got too heavy, there'd be a place 4 me 2cry by myself..!

just read the message.. it's f0r my loneliness.. d real 0ne.. but that new loneliness i'm talking in that message is the "s0meb0dy" i'm talking b0ut earlier.. get it.?!

0n the other hand, yea i admit that i'm s0 unfair.. i didn't give enough reason t0 supp0rt all the things i've done.. i dunno why i've decided t0 end this stuff but i dunno how, h0w t0 mingle this kind 0f tribulati0n i had.. even i myself d0n't understand whats really happening in my life.. all i ever wanted is freed0m.. i want t0 be free.. free than a butterfly! and n0w i already get what i want!.. well, i thanked God f0r that, but all i ever wanted t0 clarify is that, "i'm n0t d0ing this just because 0f s0meb0dy that will replace his place.." i d0n't want t0 play f0olish games they played and i d0n't want t0 use s0meb0dy just f0r my 0wn happiness.. d k0 ing0n ana ka babaw ug ut0k preha niny0!! i've made my mind t0 br0ke-up with my f0rmer partner just because 0f s0me s0rt 0f reas0ns and n0t linked with 0ther parties.. i d0n't want t0 be stuck in a realtionship that i can't d0 what i want! and i d0n't wanna be a martyr.. this is my 0wn life and i d0n't need n0 0ne t0 c0ntr0l it aside me! ~yea its natural nah imu k0 c0ntr0ll0n in s0me 0ther aspects but y0u can't f0rce a pers0n t0 d0 this 0r t0 d0 that.. maybe y0u just d0n't trust me.. am i right.?! and i think this is 0ne am0ng reas0ns i had if why my feelings f0r d0n't gr0w.. y0u already tied me s0 tight that i can't n0rmally breathe.. it's just like hell 0f bein with s0meb0dy which i can't sh0w the real ME.. i want the real me t0 be sh0wn.. as what i have said earlier, we hate plastics! s0 better just like this than being tied in my neck f0rever.. hehehe.. and i don't wanna be wrapped with loneliness.. that's why i've made my mistakes right.. all my mistakes! 'cause i want t0 start all 0ver again.. s0mething new f0r me and something fresh t0 the public!

s0 i repeat, "I DIDN'T BR0KE-UP WITH HIM JUST BECAUSE 0F 'S0MEB0DY' WH0 IS JUST LIKE MY L0NELINESS.. I MADE-UP MY MIND T0 CUT THIS R0PE I'M H0LDING 0N F0R S0ME S0RT 0R REAS0NS & I'M PRETTY MUCH SURE, THAT 'S0MEB0DY' CAN NEVER BE MY LONELINESS, AND MY LONELINESS CAN NEVER BE THAT 'S0MEB0DY'.. IF G0D W0ULD PREVAIL US T0 BE T0GETHER & MAY ACCEPT THAT 'S0MEB0DY' AS PART IN MY LIFE THEN, I WILL LOVE HIM AS HIM N0T AS S0ME0NE ELSE!!"

sabot.?! kinsa ang ala kasab0t e esa ang ilork!.. hhehee..

sa tanang mga himantay0n.. chism0sa ug uban pang mga 0k² sa kalibutan!! kanang undangi nah nah iny0 mga bisy0 w0e.. nagcge lng m0 tama dha.. ala m0 mga kwenta nah pagka taw.. nagcge lng mo ug panghilabot sa laing mga kinabuhi.. lupad m0 r0n! hahhaha.. h0pe nakasab0t m0! lisud ra bah au m0 sabt0n.. if naa m0 kaagi bef0re nah bati yaw bawsi ang mga inn0cent people w0e.. tingalig mo labaw pa ang gaba nah maab0t niny0..

mind y0u.. d0n't dare t0 piss me 0ff & don't try us.. if nahan ka aws, try badits.. bwakekekke.. lolx!

;o)
---==Jhel==---

t0 be c0ntinued...

~all b0ut this mysteri0us gurL..

2007-12-02T01:32:00.001-08:00

0ne 0f my fave s0ngs..

~mysterious girl.. ♥

anatani aitakute -missing yOu-

2007-12-01T23:09:00.001-08:00

Anata ni Aitakute

Futari no heya no tobira wo shimete
Omoidetachi ni sayonara tsugeta
Arekara hantoshino toki ga nagarete
Yatto waraeru no yo
Mainichi isogashiku shiteiru wa
Atarashii jinsei wo watashi narini aruiteru

Anata ni aitakute aitakute nemureru yoru wa
Anata no nukumori wo sono nukumori wo omoidashi
Sotto hito mitojite miru

Anata no ushiro arukitakatta
Futari de mirai kizukitakatta
Donnani aishitemo kanau kotonai ai mo aru kotonado
Kizuki mo shinai hodo anata dake
Mitsumeteta aishiteta watashi no subete wo kakete

Ishoni sugoshi tahibi wo wasurenaide ne
Kookai shinai deshou...Futari aishiattakoto
Aishiteru to tsubuyaite

say0nara daisuki na hit0.. ='(

2007-12-01T23:08:00.000-08:00

Sayonara daisuki na hito
Sayonara daisuki na hito
Mata daisuki na hito

Kuyashii yo totemo
Kanashii yo totemo
Mou kaette konai
Sore demo watashi no daisuki na hito

Nani mo kamo wasurarenai
Nani mo kamo sutekirenai
Konna jibun ga mijime de
Yowakute kawaisou de daikirai

*Sayonara daisuki na hito
Sayonara daisuki na hito
Zutto daisuki na hito
Zutto zutto daisuki na hito

Nakanai yo ima wa
Nakanaide ima wa
Kokoro hanarete yuku
Sore demo watashi no daisuki na hito

Saigo da to iikikasete
Saigo made iikikasete
Namida yo tomare
Saigo ni egao wo
Oboete oku tame

*repeat

Zutto zutto zutto daisuki na hito
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(Translated - English)

Goodbye my love
Goodbye my love
You are still my love.

Its very frustrating
And very sad.
He is not coming back again,
But even still he is my love.
I cant forget anything,
Or throw anything away.
I hate and pity my weak miserable self for this.

Goodbye my love
Goodbye my love
Always my love.
Always and forever my love.

I wont cry now, dont cry now.
You are leaving my heart,
But you are still my love.

Declare its the end, say it to the end
Stop my tears
So I will remember a smile in the end

Always my love.

wherever y0u g0.. kn0w that | really l0ve y0u..

2007-11-07T22:29:00.000-08:00

I've been awake for a while now

you've got me feelin like a child now

'cause every time i see your bubbly face

i get the tinglies in a silly place..

It starts in my toes

makes me crinkle my nose

where ever it goes i always know

that you make me smile please stay for a while now

just take your time where ever you go..

The rain is fallin on my window pane

but we are hidin in a safer place

under the covers stayin safe and warm

you give me feelins that i adore..

It starts in my toes

makes me crinkle my nose

where ever it goes

i always know

that you make me smile please stay for a while now

just take your timewhere ever you go..

What am i gonna say

when you make me feel this way

I just........mmmmmmmmmmm..

it starts in my toes

makes me crinkle my nose

where ever it goesi always know

that you make me smile please stay for a while now

just take your time where ever you go..

I’ve been asleep for a while now

You tucked me in just like a child now

'Cause every time you hold me in your arms

I'm comfortable enough to feel your warmth..

It starts in my soul

And I lose all control When you kiss my nose

The feelin shows

'Cause you make me smile

Baby just take your time

Holdin me tight..

Where ever, where ever, where ever you go

Where ever, where ever, where ever you go…

where ever you go always remember

that you made me smile just for awhile..

*jhel says: 'wherever y0u g0.. know that i really d0 l0ve y0u.. ='(

miss y0u so much..

always bear in mind that i'm now laughing at her.. :))

2007-10-31T16:37:00.000-07:00

October 31, 2007 (wednesday)

jhel: halu, gud mornin' may i know hu u are? dis is jhel, emmanuel's partner.. nanu cge mn ka txt niya? can u pls stop txting him? tnx & Godbless..

x-gf: (nitxt pa sa number nimu.. ala pa xa mo repz nko.. wew`) dear kinsa nas c jhel?

x-gf: d ka mo reply dha? pasabot ana tinood diay ang akong message nah nadawat karn?

jhel: (ako ng gi replyan kai mura xa'g amew.. so i did repz her..) ako nagdala sa ya sim karn.. ingon xa nah buwag nah daw mo ug kaw ang gusto makigbalik niya.. nag wonder lng ko kung nanu cge paka txt niya ug til now nagcge paka ingon ana.. but nanu nah mn ni karn? pasabta kuno ko..

x-gf: Ma0b... S0, ngan0 p sabt0n ta pman ka ma0 man kaha iya ing0n.

jhel: mao gani but nahibong nah lng ko nanu cge paka txt niya nah buwag nah mn kaha mo? can u pls tell me the truth.. tanan.. kung unsa jud mong duha til now.. tnx..

x-gf: Pls lng st0p txting m ok...

jhel: no.. all i want is the only truth.. txt ta as girl to girl.. ala pud koi planong mangaway.. gusto lng ko makahibaw sa tanan kung unsa jud ang tinood.. anywz, i can easily give up everything if necessary jud.. but nag wonder lng ko nanu cge paka txt ana niya nah buwag nah mn kaha mo? and in d first place kaw ang nag cge txt ni emmanuel? i have read all ur messages but ako ra gibaliwala.. kai d ko gusto ug gubot & he told me nah buwag daw mo ug kaw ang gusto makigbalik niya.. ana ra.. so ala nah ko manghilabot.. but nag wonder lng jud ko if til now cge japon ka ingon ana? maong ni confront ko nimu..

x-gf: Alangan og dli q mgcge og txt nya nga iya man qng gf. Malay q bang may lain diay xa.

x-gf: Xempre ing0n man xa nga nag buwag nami, d bu0t p sab0t ana naging kmi db? Shar0 og wla n nim0 m gets. Cge bye! Gud luck nlng s iny0ng relati0n..

jhel: hahhaha.. saernz.. kahibaw ko woe ug d pud ko bogo para d ko kasabot! saernz pud nimu.. ala biya tkaw awaya hap.. ang gusto lng nko mahibaw-an kung unsa jud ang tinood.. mao ra.. but kaw mn noon ang morag lain ug tinobagan nko.. lolz..

Xgf: Naa raman diay n, wla k nlng unta magtxt2 dha...

jhel: hahahaa.. amew mn diay ka.. all im askin u s d truth.. lol biya nimu woe.. para mangutana ko if kinsa ka ug unsa jud ang tinood.. imu pa gipadugai.. hahhaha.. jz bear in mind dat i'm laughing at you.. :)) tnx diay sa pag reply.. wew'

messages nko nimu: November 01, 2007 (thursday)

jhel: halu,gudmornin' hmmm.. indot ako day ron dah.. bwahahhaha.. hoist mata nah diay woe.. haha.. nagcge ka lng padaku dah.. bwahhahaa.. anywz, sori diay yesterday.. maybe nahan lng sa ko mag inusa.. ahhaha.. lol.. libog mn gud ko utok ato nah time.. bwahaha.. wew' watta day.. cge lng ko tingse.. ging, muztah? lantan japon? dah.. gahi mn ulo.. d mopatoo.. wew' saernz.. get well soon lng but u need to explain bout dat clown matter.. hahaha.. lol.. if nahan ka makhibaw unsa pa amo conversation, you can check my blog account.. dili sa fwenster.. dara ow, jel-emm.blogspot.com.. naa dha tanan amo conversation sa imu x-gf kuno nah gf daw nimu.. aws.. ambot unsai tinood ana.. bwahahha.. mura mn noon mo amew duha woe.. ako pa imu gi blind? lelz.. ala raba jud aso ma kumkum.. mao lng jud nah timan-e ug ALWZ BEAR IN MIND THAT I'M NOW LAUGHING AT HER.. i'm sori but all i'm askin is d truth ug i jz ask her if kinsa xa but.. ~blah blah blah.. awa lng nya ako blog..

emm²: dnt laugh yet c0z n0w i g0t all d riz0n n0t 2 ch0ose u.

jhel: bwahaha.. well sori.. kai d pud ko boang para mo sugot lng nah imu ko ingon anaon.. ala ko mag expect nah ingon ana diay imu attitude.. now i knew.. mr. emmanuel castor cortes aka lonleliness, ur more dan a parasite.. kalimti nah tanan bout dat loneliness matter.. wala nah, patai nah ang loneliness nah akong nailhan. and now i already knew if unsa ra jud ang imu gi apas nko.. d pud ko boang para d ko maka sabot..

emm²: prasite.? i like u pr0 wat i did n0t like.? was wen i found out dat 8s u hu s gamay og ut0k n0t d0s girls sa im0 mga bf.. n0w i knw y dey ddnt ch0ose u as well.

jhel: bwahaha... ako?! lelz.. love & like r different! ala ko mngaway n d 1st place.. all im askin s d only truth.. sayop diay ng gusto makhibaw sa tinood? huh? now tell me nahan bah ka magstay sa isa ka relationship nah puros lng lies?! huh? kai i myself wont allow it! but if nahan ka den go on. d mn gud ko plastic pagkataw.. yea dey may not choose me bcoz dey dont accept me for hu i am.. ana lng.. but awa lng kung kinsai nagmahai in d end.. ala lng ka khibaw kai wala tekaw gi pahibaw ana ako mga past.. if u only knew wat happend last july28(my day).. ug karn pud sa ko past bf.. but i prefer not to tell u kai d ko nahan samok.. gamai bah nah utok ang mo confront lng if wats d reason & truth behind d walls? huh? saernz pud ka woe.. kai nanu d nah diay pwede mangutana?! now i knew dat my loneliness is just a fake loneliness.. patai nah ang loneliness nah akong nailhan.. im sori but i just want u to show wat i truly felt ryt now. imu ko giboang..

emm²: uli kO krn sa leyte.. dli nkO blik! and akO ***** sa imO akO nlng ipdala.. thnx d.ai sa tanan.. ingatz..

jhel: dapat pa diay ka mananghid? saman gus2 nimu, pahawid ka? dba ingOn nah mn ka nah u will nOt chOose me? saernz pud ka.

*bwahahhahaa.. now u knew everything.. sa chikka xa ni repz nko woe.. nah kahibaw mn unta xa nah ako ang nagdala sa imu sim.. saernz pud xa.. ako pa ya ingon anon nah ala mn koi gibuhat niya.. para mangutana ra mo ingon ana dayon xa? saernz.. pag roch woe.. bwahhahaa.. aizzz duh, keber.. bwahahhaa:))

don't dare piss me off.. yaw jud ko unhi kai 'd pud tekaw atrasan.. dili ako ang tipong pip nah imung mahugaw²an ang akong kinabuhi.. so man, don't dare mess with my life.. sabot? bwahahha:)) sabot nah lng haron ala dapog..

---==Jhel==---

he's more than a parasite.. X(

2007-10-31T16:18:00.000-07:00

he's more than a parasite.. all my life i've been waitin for you.. i've waited for how may years just to be with you but then why u did hurt me.. ambot nimu woe.. maybe i don't know u well.. but i want to know u more if hu really u are.. i do hope God would give me another chance to know u more.. yea, i really love you and i admit it even if may sound so foolish but all i knew is dat i truly love you.. and i do.. but it seemed that you don't love me dat much.. you're more than a parasite.. ala nko kasabot woe.. everytime i heard the song loneliness my tears starts to fall.. i can't help it.. ambot ani woe.. God knews everything wat i trully felt inside & i'll juz lend everything to God.. waaaaaah.. O God please do help me.. i really need him but i don't know if he need me dat much.. huhuhuhh.. all can do here is just to cry & sigh.. I really miss him so much but.... (cry) loneliness, datz the word i hate to say..

i'm askin her if hu she is.. but ya noon ko giaway instead of tellin me everything.. ya pa gipa liko-liko ang estorya.. she did told me nah gf daw xa nimu but then lahi ang imu gisulti nko.. u told me nah x-gf nimu nah buwag nah mo but xa ang gusto makigbalik nimu.. unsa mani woe.. pag roch kaha mong duha dha.. dapog mo ron.. anywz.. nagkatawa lng ko sa imu x-gf.. she's like a clown for me.. bwahhhahaa.. alwz bear in mind that i'm now laughing at her.. so dont ever dare piss me off.. yaw jud ko unhi kai d pud tekaw atrasan.. and i think im not the perfect pip nah mo mess ka sa ko life.. man, don't ever dare mess in my life..

i can easily forgive you and give u another chance if you must explain and try to convince me.. explain woe kanang ma convince ko hap? bwahahaha.. i love you so much but i used my mind & heart equally.. maong ingon-ani ko..

---==Jhel==---

The Distance - Evan & Jaron

2007-10-24T21:38:00.000-07:00

The sky has lost it's color

The sun has turned to grey

At least that's how it feels to me

Whenever you're away

I crawl up in the corner

As I watch the minutes pass

Each one brings me closer to

The time you're comin' back

I can't take the distance

I can't take the miles

I can't take the time

until I next see you smile

I can't take the distance

And I'm not ashamed

That with every breath I take

I'm callin your name

But I can't take the distance..

I still believe my feelings

But sometimes I feel too much

I make believe you're close to me

But it ain't close enough

Not nearly close enough

I can't take the distance

I can't take the miles

I can't take the time

until I next see you smile

I can't take the distance

And I'm not ashamed

That with every breath I take

I'm callin your name..

I brave fire and I brave rain

To be by your side I'd do anything

I can't take the distance...

I will go the distance

I will go the miles

That's how much you mean to me

'Cause I can't take the distance

I can't take these miles

I can't take the time until

I next see you smile

I can't take the distance

And I'm not ashamed

That with every breath I take

I'm calling your name

I can't take the distance

It's hard to remember

As long as you're away

When I find solace

There's only one way..

Far Away - Nickelback

2007-10-15T12:51:00.000-07:00

This time, This place
Misused, Mistakes
Too long, Too late
Who was I to make you wait
Just one chance
Just one breath
Just in case there's just one left
'Cause you know,you know, you know

That I love you
I have loved you all along
And I miss you
Been far away for far too long
I keep dreaming you'll be with me
and you'll never go
Stop breathing if
I don't see you anymore

On my knees, I'll ask
Last chance for one last dance
'Cause with you, I'd withstand
All of hell to hold your hand
I'd give it allI'd give for us
Give anything but I won't give up
'Cause you know,you know, you know

That I love you
I have loved you all along
And I miss you
Been far away for far too long
I keep dreaming you'll be with me
and you'll never go
Stop breathing if
I don't see you anymore

So far away
Been far away for far too long
So far away
Been far away for far too long
But you know, you know, you know

I wanted
I wanted you to stay
'Cause I neededI need to hear you say
That I love you
I have loved you all along
And I forgive you
For being away for far too long
So keep breathing
'Cause I'm not leaving you anymore
Believe it
Hold on to me and, never let me go
Keep breathing
'Cause I'm not leaving you anymore
Believe it
Hold on to me and, never let me go
Keep breathing
Hold on to me and, never let me go
Keep breathing
Hold on to me and, never let me go..

Addicted - Stevie Hoang

2007-10-15T12:32:00.000-07:00

Since u went away it's been one year two months

But it just dun seem like yesterday we were still together

Time has passed and things have changed so

Why do I feel this way

Cos you're with somebody else

And I'm with somebody else but
Whenever I think about the the love we had

It hurts so bad

Whenever I think about the love we made

I said that I'd be strong

Girl I really thought that I'd move on

But still I find myself asking

Do u still think of me like I think about u
Do u still dream of me cos I can't sleep without u
Tell me if time should make a change

Then why do I feel the same

Your love has got me addicted

Said I don't know

When I'm with a chick and hittin it girl I call your name

Said I don't know

When I be with somebody else I push them away

Tell me if time should make a change

Then why do I feel the same

I know I gotta move on but I'm so addicted to u..

It's been long enough don't know why I'm still holding on

If I had a wish babe I would turn back the hands of time

Cos u don't know what u got untill it's gone

It's the reason why I'm writing u this song

Girl I'm slippin and I don't know what to do

Girl I admit it, I'm sick over u

Damn I realised my mistake, my pride got in the way

I should have begged u to stay

Do u still think of me like I think about u

Do u still dream of me cos I can't sleep without u

Tell me if time should make a change

Then why do I feel the same

Your love has got me addicted

Said I don't know

When I'm with a chick and hittin it girl I call your name

Said I don't know

When I be with somebody else I push them away

Tell me if time should make a change

Then why do I feel the same

I know I gotta move on but I'm so addicted to u..

If u ever lost someone u truely love

Let me hear u say yeah

And if u lost someone u truely need

Let me hear u say yeah..

Do u still think of me like I think about u

Do u still dream of me cos I can't sleep without u

Tell me if time should make a change

Then why do I feel the same

Your love has got me addicted

Said I don't know

When I'm with a chick and hittin it girl I call your name

Said I don't know

When I be with somebody else I push them away

Tell me if time should make a change

Then why do I feel the same

I know I gotta move on but I'm so addicted to u..

|one|iness - Laura Pausini

2007-10-14T05:44:00.000-07:00

I don't even know if he still thinks of me
Once he got onboard that unforgiving train
I imagine that he whiled away the time
Through the cold gray morning and the city rain
Thinking of somebody else who'll run to him
Who'll ask him did you miss me, maybe now and then
Laughing he'll say well he met this funny girl
But just a summer thing he won't see her again

Oh God I hope I'm wrong
But I'm not feeling very strong
I've been so up and down so sad
So happy, feeling good and bad
I'm young I'm old I laught I cry
I tell the truth but that a lie
I've been so in and out so wild
So well behaved so pure defiled

oh solitudine..
That word I hate to say

And no I was not crazy to do what we did
I even wish I'd been a bit more crazy still
And kept a little more of him to see me through
He loved me all he could I never had my fill
And then I'm back inside my room he knows so well
I feel again the way he moved I take it slow
I talk to him and he becomes a part of me
And then I know he'll never let the summer go

Oh God I hope I'm right
I won't give in without a fight
And I can take the words they throw
At me for none of could know
That we had something few
Will ever find their whole life through
I wouldn't change a single day
Although the price I have to pay is solitudine
The loneliness is tearing me apart
It tears me up it pull me down and then
It wraps around my heart oh solitudine
Does he remenber all he said to me
I'm young I'm old I laugh I cry
I tell the truth but that's a lie
I've been so in and out so wild
So well behaved so pure defiled

oh solitudine...

Does he remember all he said to me
And I can take the words they throw
At me for none of could know
That we had something few
Will ever find their whole life through
I wouldn't change sigle day
Although the price I have to pay is solitudine

♥Jhel♥

~kefoy.. ako ang ala kasabot or ikaw?

~The Recipe for Full-Blown Trouble.. (hinarbor*hihihi*)

~After a while you learn... by Veronica A. Shoffstall, (C) 1971

lolz

my so long adversities in life..

my lOng lOst lOve.. [hOpe that i wOuld ever find him again..]

~pOint Of view

my real th0ughts..

~all b0ut this mysteri0us gurL..

anatani aitakute -missing yOu-

say0nara daisuki na hit0.. ='(

wherever y0u g0.. kn0w that | really l0ve y0u..

always bear in mind that i'm now laughing at her.. :))

he's more than a parasite.. X(

The Distance - Evan & Jaron

Far Away - Nickelback

Addicted - Stevie Hoang

|one|iness - Laura Pausini

~The Recipe for Full-Blown Trouble.. (hinarborhihihi)